English again

Whom do I talk to😅

But it's ok😜

 

Because of Japanese education?Or custom, culture or decency? I feel that I do not do self-enlightenment is evil!

also,I feel that children are learning,practicing,drilling so much.

And growing up everyday.

Why don't I?

When I stop...

When I feel I stop growing,

I really lose to them.

 

It must be an identity of me.

If I stop growing up,I must capitulate to them.

or die...

 

But,I don't want to lose.

I don't want to stop growing up.

I can't die yet.

 

So, I continue to practice,

to feel that I'm living!

Growing up is the same as my existence!